the shadow of our past

That wonderful moment when your crush texts you “Hey beautiful”….

And the horrible moment when they apologize to you because their phone was stolen.

They never meant to text you… and they don’t think you’re beautiful.

I think I’m at the point where I can be in your presence & be okay. At least, I hope so.

Verge

Controlling my thoughts.
Keeping them straight.
Calming my emotions.
But knowing their fate.
Dreading the feeling.
I sit here & wait.
Holding onto the stillness.
With the doubting I hate.
It’s by building this wall.
I’m resisting the fall.

   By doing nothing at all.
   I’m resisting the fall.

If you’re not going to show me that you care, then I wish you’d just leave me alone. Disappear.

I’ll keep my armor on until you prove me wrong.

I haven’t forgotten a word you said. I replay them all in my head.

May

Perhaps for you it’s easy to let it go & walk away
Your heart kept at a distance every day
The only expert in the game you play

Even from afar there is so much to say
Loving you always, in my heart to stay
From the love we shared I will never sway

None could replace you, none could repay
How you’ve touched my life in a special way